Not my best idea.

[ysobelle]

Many years ago, a friend of mine, upset over bad times with her boyfriend and feeling lonely, went to the movies to cheer herself up. What did she pick?

"Schindler's List."

I, feeling alone and grey, decided to cheer myself up with one of the movies I bought months ago for the Costume Whores Movie Marathon. What did I pick?

"Cold Mountain."


While I cried intermittently throughout, the old woman stroking and comforting the goat before dinner made me actually stop the movie and play with my dog. And the young widow who asks Inman just to sleep beside her...when she took his hand and closed her eyes, I cried almost as hard as she did.

It's just a bad night. I'll be fine later when I've had some sleep. But I said one thing so unfortunately melodramatic, but even more unfortunately true: I wish I had the knife that could cut him out of me.

Comments

[silverstah.livejournal.com]

I used to watch "Schindler's List" a lot, when I was depressed. It made me realize that, in the grande scheme of things, my life really wasn't all that bad.

*hugs* I'm sorry, sweetie. A good night's sleep usually helps... although on nights like that it can be painfully hard to get any sleep at all.

[ysobelle.livejournal.com]

You got that right. On the upside, now I've given up on sleeping for the moment, I can go get the new display dress form FedEx left at the rental office. I'll just try to nap again, later.