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[ysobelle]

Another call from my mother. Another barely-disguised suggestion that I pack it in and get "a real job."

I snapped. I don't know what it was this time, but I snapped. I hung up on her, sat down, and wrote an email saying, essentially, "Stop telling me I'm stupid. Stop telling me I'm a failure. I'm NOT giving up. I'm NOT stupid. I know exactly what's going on, and I am NOT GIVING UP. This is my life now. I have a start-up business, and it's rough. It's always rough. But I am NOT GIVING UP. Stop implying that I should."

I don't know that it'll do me any good. I don't know if it'll help at all. but I'm tired of having one of the only people in my life who's being supportive being my therapist-- whom I pay.*

I'm tired of everything being a huge struggle. I'm overwhelmed.


But I Am. Not. Giving. Up.






*Not in the least a slam on my therapist. She's amazing. And when I'm doing something wrong, she points it out to me. But she's been one of the only ones to tell me I'm doing something right, and it's hard, but I'll survive.

Comments

[daemionfox.livejournal.com]

Bubby, you ain't doing things wrong. Hell, you blazed past me already and I was doing it longer. Chin up!

[ysobelle.livejournal.com]

Blazed past you? Ha. You're the MAN!

[dansr.livejournal.com]

"Never Give Up! Never Surrender!"

Love you.

[silverstah.livejournal.com]

Hee! Win!

[ysobelle.livejournal.com]

Bless you. I couldn't answer the phone cos I'm calling every merchant service company I can find. Call you later?

[silverstah.livejournal.com]

Dude. You're an amazingly talented artist working in a high-end luxury-class market during a recession slight downturn in the economy. You're still in the process of getting your business off the ground. It's a process that takes YEARS.

You're doing something right, and it's hard, but you'll survive.

There are a LOT of folks out there who blithely say that they're going to start a garb business. Most of 'em I roll my eyes at and think "yeah, THAT will last about... 6 months". It generally lasts until they have their first truly horrid client, or they lose money at an event, or they realize that it's ACTUAL HARD WORK and they give up.

You? You're tenacious. You have - as my grandfather puts it - moxie! You're an amazing artist providing a unique product, and you WILL succeed.

You're doing something right, and it's hard, but you'll survive.

[ysobelle.livejournal.com]

I have moxie! Aww. Makes me wanna go out and shoot some chump, then make it big on Broadway with the story of my life.

If I could dance, that is.

[daemionfox.livejournal.com]

She's got soda that causes die hard gamers to twitch uncontrollably and is rumored to eat through glass?

[silverstah.livejournal.com]

HEE! Sure! ;)

[scarletwildfire.livejournal.com]

Dude if I could afford one of your abso-smurfly beautiful corsets I would so have you make me one!

[sterling2905.livejournal.com]

She does payment plans......... :-)




hehe! I thought it was Audrey's job to be the enabler...

[snugglyevil.livejournal.com]

Did someone call??

heeheehee

Yes yes! We do payments!

Come on.....all the cool kids are doing it!

[scarletwildfire.livejournal.com]

you guys are great.... we friends like you - Nikki can't possibly go wrong!

[caitriona27.livejournal.com]

And you'll look great!!! Everyone is doing and their small so buy two.

Hell I'm up to what 6?

I'll take pix this weekend for you!!

[bronxelf-ag001.livejournal.com]

Another barely-disguised suggestion that I pack it in and get "a real job."

Oh I remember when I used to get that shit. I have all the sympathy in the world, hon.

(I just don't think you want to try my method of making it stop.)

[wednesday42.livejournal.com]

*hugs you*

You are made of win and love. Always remember that and don't let anyone convince you otherwise.

[istilana.livejournal.com]

Ahh the love of a good therapist...

So my two cents from the other side.. At least you do not have a job at a drone company that can lay you off. You have more control over your life, and future because you are your own boss. If you dont push and get something out the door, it is you directly who feels it.

I think you are doing a kick ass job. The only thing I would say is is something you know... get your name and frocks out there as much as you can. Because word of mouth will keep you going.

Here is an idea... Scott Church is a photographer over in Pittsburgh. He dose a lot of variety of photos, and posts a lot of his work on his myspace and live journal. I am willing to bet that you have one person on here who would love to have Scott shot them. Talk with them, talk with Scott do something to get some exposure to another venue. Here is his lj, http://scottchurch.livejournal.com/

Now I have just consumed an entire sleeve of ritz crackers... I might want to go eat some protein with my carbs.

[meoinc.livejournal.com]

First I am SO sorry you are having a bad go at it at moment. I love you and I LOVE your work!!!!!!!! Got to keep your head up as much as you can. Sending a big hug!!!

[sjbpharmd.livejournal.com]

Everyone has some low points...we all do. But you are a great person, have some amazing friends, and am doing what you love. Even on a bad day, its better than most. Stick with it kid!

[snugglyevil.livejournal.com]

While I think a part time job for some steady money is a good thing and maybe moving in with someone to cut expenses....I would never tell you to abandon your dream. You must follow this through to wherever it takes you. You know me...I worry about you. I worry about all my friends. It's my nature. Ultimately, it is your life, Sweetums. You are far too old to let your what your parents say affect your happiness. They need to know that while you appreciate their concern....it's your life so opinions need to be kept to themselves. You also dont want to burn your bridges with them. Ahh...the tricky path of parental diplomacy. heh

*HUGS*

[transversecity.livejournal.com]

Man, we are in the same boat almost completely.

[mirroreyes.livejournal.com]

Suckage.

I still love you... and you pay me to be a bitch ;) remember?
Hugs. But I love you anyways.
I keep selling people corsets... and um... needing more of my own ;)

[skiafoxmorgan.livejournal.com]

oh baby....

I understand.

Not a day passes, hardly, that my momma doesn't call and talk about how much better I'd be in a teacher's uniform. :) (not that teachers wear uniforms, but you get the idea)

It was just a few weeks ago that *I* snapped. "I'm damn near forty years old, and have I EVER done what YOU think I should do? I have two kids, I'm on my second house, fourth car, ten-thousandth boyfriend, and I can say i did it all without you. Leave me alone!"

[trillian-stars.livejournal.com]

Um... yeah. What everyone else said!

I mean, has your mother SEEN your work???? I give you full permission to circulate photos of me in my stunning work of art/piece of divinity! Not that even that will convince someone who refuses to be convinced, but COME ON!!!