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May. 28th, 2008 04:50 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
ysobelleAnother call from my mother. Another barely-disguised suggestion that I pack it in and get "a real job."
I snapped. I don't know what it was this time, but I snapped. I hung up on her, sat down, and wrote an email saying, essentially, "Stop telling me I'm stupid. Stop telling me I'm a failure. I'm NOT giving up. I'm NOT stupid. I know exactly what's going on, and I am NOT GIVING UP. This is my life now. I have a start-up business, and it's rough. It's always rough. But I am NOT GIVING UP. Stop implying that I should."
I don't know that it'll do me any good. I don't know if it'll help at all. but I'm tired of having one of the only people in my life who's being supportive being my therapist-- whom I pay.*
I'm tired of everything being a huge struggle. I'm overwhelmed.
But I Am. Not. Giving. Up.
*Not in the least a slam on my therapist. She's amazing. And when I'm doing something wrong, she points it out to me. But she's been one of the only ones to tell me I'm doing something right, and it's hard, but I'll survive.
I snapped. I don't know what it was this time, but I snapped. I hung up on her, sat down, and wrote an email saying, essentially, "Stop telling me I'm stupid. Stop telling me I'm a failure. I'm NOT giving up. I'm NOT stupid. I know exactly what's going on, and I am NOT GIVING UP. This is my life now. I have a start-up business, and it's rough. It's always rough. But I am NOT GIVING UP. Stop implying that I should."
I don't know that it'll do me any good. I don't know if it'll help at all. but I'm tired of having one of the only people in my life who's being supportive being my therapist-- whom I pay.*
I'm tired of everything being a huge struggle. I'm overwhelmed.
But I Am. Not. Giving. Up.
*Not in the least a slam on my therapist. She's amazing. And when I'm doing something wrong, she points it out to me. But she's been one of the only ones to tell me I'm doing something right, and it's hard, but I'll survive.