The grand confusion....

[ysobelle]

It's been a week where the only thing you can do is look at the stars and ponder, as no answers are forthcoming from down here. I've set my feet on a path which will, more likely than not, take me as low as I've ever been, though it's also taken me to a height I've never seen before.

I also saw things from that height in a world-shifting perspective. I've had a few rumours confirmed-- and discovered where I stand on an age-old debate. I've also discovered that it's possible to be extraordinarily successful the first time you try something. I shall be wickedly grinning about that for a while.

The low will come. I've already spied it from the path, felt the change in pressure in my ears. I knew from the beginning this would be the way, all hopes to the contrary notwithstanding. But I've learned so much about myself in this last year or so. I got swept up in something I didn't understand and couldn't handle, and the rage and confusion were out of control. I know I'm setting myself up for more rage and sorrow, but the point is that I know. I know, I'm waiting for it. I have a place reserved by the door. I'd prefer not to have to use it, but you can't get everything in life, right?




Yesterday at work was my co-worker Loretta's birthday. Oh, the buzz! "We have to get her cupcakes! Oh, it's been a while since it was anyone's birthday around here!" Silly to admit it, but I was crushed. It's not like there are swarms of us there. Everyone else's birthday is met with chocolate and cheer-- mine was forgotten. Repeatedly. How many times did I hear, "Ohmigod, your birthday? When?" As no one had said anything before about Loretta's birthday-- she works one day a week, at most-- once every other week, sometimes-- I went out on break and bought her the sunniest bouquet I could find.

Never mind, though. I still got one of the best presents ever. And being petty is beneath me.

Comments

[emalia.livejournal.com]

What did you get that was the bestest ever.. BTW I suck at birthdays.. Not just you.. In general. I remember shannon's as it is two weeks before mine.. That is about it.

[ysobelle.livejournal.com]

"What did you get that was the bestest ever.. "

Come, now, you're a bright girl. Take a wild guess.

[emalia.livejournal.com]

I said I was a light bulb, but I NEVER implies that I was the brightest one.. ;)

I was just double checking to see if it was entirely possible that there was something else that could have made your day such as that.. ;)

[miscelenaclosed.livejournal.com]

I suppose if one's going to ride a rollercoaster, it's best to take a good look at it first.

You know I'm the designated purse-holder of the crowd: I loathe the things myself, but I'm happy to stand on the ground and wait, and then laugh with you afterward about the peculiar look you're wearing in the split-second photo they sold you for $8. ;)

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I've really got to cut back on my metaphor production.

[ysobelle.livejournal.com]

"I've really got to cut back on my metaphor production. "



Ohhh, no you don't!

[skiafoxmorgan.livejournal.com]

If we're going to be talking roller coaster metaphors, then my sweet, might I suggest we ride this one together? Seems we're going to be taking a LOT of ups and downs between the two of us. But you have to remember, when it comes to roller coasters, the highs wouldn't seem as exhilarating without the lows. And the lows wouldn't be as terrifying if we hadn't climbed so high.

I think I'm getting sea-sick.