Dammit.

[ysobelle]

I know you have to break some eggs to make an omelette, and I know you have to spend money to make money. It's just that while yeah, I have some lovely jumbo eggs in the fridge, I'm nigh unto broke.

And I have to have a website.

I've had a lot of people say they'd help me, and I'm grateful for the offers, but as of yet, no one's actually come through. Certainly not at a price I can afford. I could stagger through Dreamweaver myself-- I have it-- but I don't have the basic knowledge or the patience. I also don't need a site that looks like it was created by someone who just learned Dreamweaver. It seems that I have the space now on my .Mac site. I have the domain. I even went over the design of the site with Lars years ago-- like he has the time to do it. But it has to get done. I have to figure out how.

Why the sudden rush? I'm sick to death of working for someone who doesn't appreciate me. And no, Jay, I don't mean you. I'm feeling grossly exploited by my job, I'm pissed off about it, and I'm thinking of leaving. I love having flexibility, and I love my customers, but I have a string of broken promises behind me now, and I could, at this point, as my manager what time it was, and she'd roll her fucking eyes at me. I don't feel like being the top seller at Christmas again while getting completely screwed over. Again. I love the actual job, and I despise the thought of job-hunting or going temp again, especially after a chilling article I just read in the Washington Post about how exploited temp workers on the whole are.

If I could find another fun, worthwhile retail job, I'd do that. I've been told I could sell a ketchup popsicle to a woman wearing white gloves. And I love the nifty jewelry and art glass we have. But I want somewhere I'm appreciated, possibly even-- gasp!-- promoted, and where my raise isn't an insult. It's taken me a very, very, very long time to be able to say, "I'm worth more." It's about damned time I started acting on that. So there.

I'll temp if I have to. I have an excellent record with my agencies, and they can find me stuff. Apparently, I can even get some manner of health insurance through one agency. But I want to be captain of my own ship. I don't want to have to go through this circus next year because I work Faire-- if you'll have me back, dear Reeder. And I want to know that I'm responsible for myself. When someone asks me what I do, I want to OWN saying that I'm a costumer and corsetiere, not say it and qualify it.

I'm feisty today. Perhaps it's just because I have to give the Toyota back this afternoon. Which is, I suppose, just as well. It's probably not a good idea to do 100mph on the Turnpike just because you can.

Comments

[musicismath.livejournal.com]

Dreamweaver has a tutorial built into it that takes 15 minutes to do, and it's enough to design a site great site. the rest of the bells and whistles, you learn as you go.

[ysobelle.livejournal.com]

I know, and I did try it, but I'm so frustrated at my own slow pace. I want it done NOW. I don't learn well with tutorials. I have to watch someone doing something and be able to talk it through as I go.

Aren't you up to your eyeballs in diapers right about now?

[neverborn13.livejournal.com]

100 on the turnpike
What so wrong with that

[ysobelle.livejournal.com]

Yes, and I was indeed thinking of you. And thanking G-d I mostly slept through it when you did it.

[emalia.livejournal.com]

why? I didn't.. I loved it, however I missed alot of the country side.. ;)

[ysobelle.livejournal.com]

Some things are better in the dark, and some things just...aren't.

Love you, Sean! MWAH!

[neverborn13.livejournal.com]

Hey Nikki what was the name of that store in Philly off south street that sold the Chain Maille that we took Tia and Bas too ?????

I gave billy the Business Card and I cannot for the life of me remember what the name of the place is.

[ysobelle.livejournal.com]

Mmmm...Armed and Dangerous? With all the cool jewelry? I love that place. So does Bast!

You and I have a date with The Barbary the weekend after Faire closes. Just so you know.

[neverborn13.livejournal.com]

nah not armed and dangerous the other one
The one with the interesting shoes
and the one where Bass dressed up like pinhead with the floor lenght leather gown/cape/badassed looking coat thingy

[emalia.livejournal.com]

Nope.. It was Passional.

[emalia.livejournal.com]

hehehehee well.. somethings are just good no matter the light or lack of!

[ysobelle.livejournal.com]

Okay, well, yes, there's that.

[emalia.livejournal.com]

heheheheheheh Luv you!

[silverstah.livejournal.com]

I'm not sure what you're looking for, and I'm not sure what she charges, and I odn't know what your budget is, but tooaquarius is a web designer who is attempting to do more work independently - and wants to make her niche market working with other independent artists.

In any case, it's worth looking into. :) Tell her that I referred you!

[ysobelle.livejournal.com]

You're entirely too cool, you know. Can you point me at any sites she's done?

[silverstah.livejournal.com]

Not off of the top of my head - I've lost my bookmarks recently. I'm sure she'll be more than happy to direct you to sites she's done, though. :)

I just want to see YOU succeed! I've seen a *lot* of corsets and corset bodices out at faires, and yours are, hands down, the best. You have a wonderful product that is reasonably priced - you should do well! :)

I, OTOH, have been sitting on a corset for the past 2 months. It's about half done. And not likely to get done anytime soon. ;) You have way more patience than I do, my friend!

[ysobelle.livejournal.com]

Have I told you, by the way, just how much you utterly rock?


And I only have patience in certain situations. Other times, I'm a raving loon. Honest!

[silverstah.livejournal.com]

*lol* I'm sure you are - we're all raving loons every once in a while.

Keep us posted on the website! :)

[hederaivy.livejournal.com]

also check out AtTheFaire.com for webhosting space. Last time I checked, they were around $7/month for unlimited space for any ren-related business.
My ex hosts with them, and other than a bit of trouble when they migrated servers last year, it's been quite good value.

[ysobelle.livejournal.com]

I think I have enough space-- they added 150 megs to the space I have at .Mac. It's just filling it creatively that's the problem.

[kylecassidy.livejournal.com]

hey! wait! didn't i already make you a website???

[ysobelle.livejournal.com]

Darling, you've done more than anyone else to make the site I have the neato-cool thing it is. Including making the site in the first place. You have absolutely no idea how awed I am you did that for me-- or that you did it in 23 seconds. It's fabulous. I just need something bigger now, and I don't even want to ask you work on it cos I KNOW you're usually swamped.

I still owe you seat cushions, dammit. What are you doing next Monday?