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ysobelleI feel like I should post something about the visit I received last Friday night. Boxing Day.
But I'm not sure, still, what to say about it. It was lovely to have a companion, and I like him very much. We watched Serenity, and Doctor Who: "The Shakespeare Code" and the Christmas special, slowly closing in on one another on the couch until we were companionably tangled together. Some time in the wee hours, we moved off the couch, and after that is no one's business.
But I'm not sure, now, where we are. I'm getting mixed messages: I think I know how he feels, but I don't know what he's going to do about it. If anything. Time will tell, of course, but...it's just that it seems I'm the one who has to play director, and I've never been in this situation before. I'm not used to it, and I don't think he is, either. I also wonder if it's just that he's not used to dating someone who isn't a psycho, which sounds funny until you realise it's true.
I like him. I want to keep exploring what this is. I'm also going to be cautious. Dragging him along in blind enthusiasm will end disastrously, and I will end up hurting myself just as surely as he's saying he's afraid he'll do.
I'll do what I can. The rest is up to him.
But I'm not sure, still, what to say about it. It was lovely to have a companion, and I like him very much. We watched Serenity, and Doctor Who: "The Shakespeare Code" and the Christmas special, slowly closing in on one another on the couch until we were companionably tangled together. Some time in the wee hours, we moved off the couch, and after that is no one's business.
But I'm not sure, now, where we are. I'm getting mixed messages: I think I know how he feels, but I don't know what he's going to do about it. If anything. Time will tell, of course, but...it's just that it seems I'm the one who has to play director, and I've never been in this situation before. I'm not used to it, and I don't think he is, either. I also wonder if it's just that he's not used to dating someone who isn't a psycho, which sounds funny until you realise it's true.
I like him. I want to keep exploring what this is. I'm also going to be cautious. Dragging him along in blind enthusiasm will end disastrously, and I will end up hurting myself just as surely as he's saying he's afraid he'll do.
I'll do what I can. The rest is up to him.