Some things just get better.
Aug. 20th, 2008 11:22 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
ysobelleDuring the time I'm to be in London, there IS an RSC production at The Courtyard Theatre in Stratford:
Romeo & Juliet.
Oh, G-d. A luxury of brainfood.
It's been a very, very mixed few days. There's so much I HAVE, but I seem to hit these points where all I can see is what I LACK. I make myself so angry sometimes, but I can't seem to stem this feeling of...loss and emptiness. It's not constant, thank G-d. Part of it is, of course, my estrangement from my family. There's also the vast, devouring uncertainty of the economy and its effect on my business. The nerve-wracking feeling that there's a big anvil PARF management is holding over the vendors. And there's some personal stuff that just continues to be painful. I'm trying to keep a lot of plates spinning in the air right now. And there's no time to take a break. Absolutely no time.
I was so looking forward to another wedding consult tomorrow, but alas, the bride is terribly ill. It gives me another day to work on stock, but I have no help this week, so I'm feeling some pressure. Thankfully, I bought ten busks this morning, so I can at least finish the corsets I have close to done. And on the way back from buying them, I stopped at a small boutique market. I knew it'd be overpriced, but I also knew it'd be organic. And it was-- organic and local. I spent too much, but I've been taking such horrible care of myself lately. It's not helping my mood. I MUST start eating better, sleeping better. Oh, yeah-- I haven't been sleeping much of late. I fall asleep in the wee hours, then snap awake in the morning. It's anxiety.
I'm going to sleep. Much to do tomorrow, even without the Fabric Row trip.
I might stop and kiss my RSC tickets on the way to bed. That does tend to help.
Romeo & Juliet.
Oh, G-d. A luxury of brainfood.
It's been a very, very mixed few days. There's so much I HAVE, but I seem to hit these points where all I can see is what I LACK. I make myself so angry sometimes, but I can't seem to stem this feeling of...loss and emptiness. It's not constant, thank G-d. Part of it is, of course, my estrangement from my family. There's also the vast, devouring uncertainty of the economy and its effect on my business. The nerve-wracking feeling that there's a big anvil PARF management is holding over the vendors. And there's some personal stuff that just continues to be painful. I'm trying to keep a lot of plates spinning in the air right now. And there's no time to take a break. Absolutely no time.
I was so looking forward to another wedding consult tomorrow, but alas, the bride is terribly ill. It gives me another day to work on stock, but I have no help this week, so I'm feeling some pressure. Thankfully, I bought ten busks this morning, so I can at least finish the corsets I have close to done. And on the way back from buying them, I stopped at a small boutique market. I knew it'd be overpriced, but I also knew it'd be organic. And it was-- organic and local. I spent too much, but I've been taking such horrible care of myself lately. It's not helping my mood. I MUST start eating better, sleeping better. Oh, yeah-- I haven't been sleeping much of late. I fall asleep in the wee hours, then snap awake in the morning. It's anxiety.
I'm going to sleep. Much to do tomorrow, even without the Fabric Row trip.
I might stop and kiss my RSC tickets on the way to bed. That does tend to help.
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Date: 2008-08-21 08:16 pm (UTC)I'm just...meh. Frustrated.
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Date: 2008-08-22 01:34 pm (UTC)Looking forward to a npa when I get home from work today LOL