Is it enough yet?

[ysobelle]

When the things that are supposed to make you happy after a long funk just turn out to be added angst, giving up and going far, far away just seems a better idea by the minute.

Even better? I'm looking at all the photos from Wicked Faire, and all I can think is, "Gosh. Looks like it was fun. Wish I could have seen it."

Comments

[silverstah.livejournal.com]

Ah - my apologies for assuming that you hadn't been on the business end of things. :) Most of the time when I've had folks tell me to just "take a break", they've never had to rely 100% on their art to pay the mortgage. :)

[crystalsage.livejournal.com]

Well, I will admit that I do have other sources of income, but its still my business..doesn't make it any less pressure to make it a success.

Being able to let go and let others "help me out" is a fairly new thing for me... last season at Parf, I was out for two whole weekends becuase of illness; I literally couldn't get out of bed for 2 weekends, I was so weak I couldn't move. And I kept trying to push myself to be there, becuase the fact that i wasn't there was killing me worse than the illness. But at some point I had to trust my friends and know that they were taking care of my interests. And ya know what? We had 2 of the best weekends financially that we've had since opening. So since that point, I've been learning to let go a little more and trust a little more.