Thoughtful.
Jun. 7th, 2004 11:28 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
ysobelleSo two nights ago, rather than answer my question, someone dropped me from his friends list. I don't think it was spiteful. I think it was just time-- I'd done it months ago, and I wasn't sure why he hadn't. I still have two CDs and a shirt here, though.
I don't like change. That's what it comes down to. I don't like change, and I don't like things that don't go the way I plan. I make up my mind about how I want a thing to go, and I don't like when that thing does something else. I am stubborn in the extreme, and that includes with myself: I'm the last to drop an idea, and the last to say, "All right, let's do something completely different." In my mind, at least. And when I do give up on something, I can't avoid that subtle but pervasive feeling of disappointment in myself.
I still think I should have been able to fix something, when I rationally know I could more easily have rebuilt the Temple in Jerusalem.
Having said that, don't read more into my pursuing the thread from a few days ago: I still don't have a full list of respondents from my "Friend Of" list. I still want to know. Do please answer! Why are you still here?
I don't like change. That's what it comes down to. I don't like change, and I don't like things that don't go the way I plan. I make up my mind about how I want a thing to go, and I don't like when that thing does something else. I am stubborn in the extreme, and that includes with myself: I'm the last to drop an idea, and the last to say, "All right, let's do something completely different." In my mind, at least. And when I do give up on something, I can't avoid that subtle but pervasive feeling of disappointment in myself.
I still think I should have been able to fix something, when I rationally know I could more easily have rebuilt the Temple in Jerusalem.
Having said that, don't read more into my pursuing the thread from a few days ago: I still don't have a full list of respondents from my "Friend Of" list. I still want to know. Do please answer! Why are you still here?
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you're cute, sweet, and a total nutburger.
miss ya!
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Date: 2004-06-27 11:21 pm (UTC)Evil? I'm not sure. Misguided? Yeah. What happened? What terrible thing could he have done? And who are you, if I may ask?
You may email me privately if you wish.