Maybe unexpected, maybe not.

[ysobelle]

I went to the memorial garden at faire last weekend, while everyone was working. I'd had a long talk with Rho on the drive up about Leah, and just vented, loud and long. The mood stayed with me when I got to site-- actually, it stayed with me all day, but that's beside the point-- so I decided to take a few minutes. I've always been of the opinion that you don't need to be in a specific place for someone to hear you, but that such places help focus you. So I slipped away up the hill for a few minutes. Winter and ground staff haven't been kind-- I picked up the birdbath, righted a cracked cherub, dusted off the sign in memoriam to David. Pulled a weed or two.

And then I sat down on the bench, kicking out a couple more weeds with my feet, and vented. I miss her. It's gotten worse the closer we get to faire, when I realise she isn't going to be there. I'm angry. I wish to G-d she'd fought harder. I worry about the boys. I worry about her brother. I miss her. I'd like to say the venting helped, but I'm not sure it did.

The memorial for her is going to be hard. Very hard.

Comments

[puppetmaker40.livejournal.com]

When is the memorial? Depending on the weekend we might try to make it down for it.

Also not to add but I thought you should know that Peter and Colleen Doran did a sort tribute/good-bye piece to Leah in the back of the Friendly Neighborhood Spiderman Annual that came out this week in comic shops.

The piece is entitled Leah.

[caitriona27.livejournal.com]

I'm not doing so well myself today. I don't know why TODAY is particularly hard except that I'm planning for Devon and she would have gone with me.

[caitriona27.livejournal.com]

The last I knew we were intending for the second week of faire (Aug 18/19). Probably for that Saturday.

[ysobelle.livejournal.com]

Sunday, actually. So yeah, the 19th. It's good with Carrie, I just have to work out the details on getting everyone in before we open. She's been really cool with the idea, so I think it'll be easier than the last time.

And I hate that I even have to say "the last time."

[ysobelle.livejournal.com]

I know. Oh, do I know.

Hugs.

[ysobelle.livejournal.com]

I'll have to look for that, then. Thank you so much!

[caitriona27.livejournal.com]

Ok.. We need goldfish and M&M's. I'll get a rosebush and maybe we can get it in the ground for fling. I'll also work on the sign.