I wish to G-d....

[ysobelle]

I am lucky. Not just that random things have happened to me for no reason, but that I have a talent I can use to eventually support myself, and family to help keep my head above water while I work up to doing so. I'm lucky in that I have fabulous friends who are ready, willing, and able to assist me, both emotionally and professionally. For months now, when I've needed specific help, it's come to me. I can honestly say I look at my working life now and I know I'm blessed to the hilt. I'm grateful beyond words.

I just can't shake this screaming rage that hits me late at night, when I'm tired, when I'm alone, when I'm not looking. I feel like fucking Prometheus. I just want it to stop. Is that so much to ask?

Comments

[mirroreyes.livejournal.com]

We love you Nikki dear.
:)

we do!

I wish to G-D

[sheraqaw.livejournal.com]

I'm up all night 6 out of 7. Rage at me. I'm right here.

[well-artesia.livejournal.com]

Sweets... if it's nocturnal, if it's routine, if it's cyclical... and particularly if your head is saying your reactions aren't entirely appropriate, have you considered that the cause might be hormonal/chemical?

And you know well that I say this as one who has been yanked around by her hormones in the past... fiesty little buggers they are, and they shouldn't be allowed too much rein. Check the nutrition/caffeine intake? Get a physical with a CBC?

When life is going badly, it's hard to tell what's stress and what's excess.... but hon, when life is good, you should be able to enjoy it. Do check out the physical-cause possibilities, 'k? *hugs*

[ysobelle.livejournal.com]

Oh, it's cyclical, trust me.

But thank you.