It's the little things.

[ysobelle]

I just told one of my favourite barristas at Starbucks downstairs, "Your caffeine-fu is strong!"


It's men, specifically and in general. It's having fabulous friends that I love but coming home to just my animals every night. It's having someone's beloved cat die in my arms last week on the way to the emergency vet at 2am, and a hapless stray dog we were trying to save probably being destroyed because of it. It's getting a shit review Monday, then being called into HR AGAIN yesterday to be told I suck, ending in my saying, fine, you want my two weeks, here it is. "Sleep on it," they said. Now my entire family is screaming at me not to quit, as I wouldn't get unemployment, which HR tells me I wouldn't get anyway. It's being treated like and spoken to as if I'm an idiot child. It's not being able to fucking sleep any more. It's PARF wanting their $1,600. Now. It's the cat hospital wanting their $2,000. Now. It's wondering if I can even paint in the first place any more. It's NeoCons and war and rape and murder and burning my mouth and my tongue on my soup last night.

It's everything.

Comments

[mirroreyes.livejournal.com]

oh good grief honey! I dont know what to tell you!

I'm here for you as much as you need sweetie...
Just wish I had some good ideas to help. I have no doubt you'll be able to paint and do wonderful things to the corsets - its YOU! You're just upset right now... it'll be ok. I have faith in you!

As for money, I dont have a lot, but I have a little I can loan!

*HUG*

[snipeyhead.livejournal.com]

I'm so sorry chica. I still love you, of that helps at all. (I know it doesn't, but humor me.)

Re: *HUG*

[ysobelle.livejournal.com]

A long time ago, you said to me that you didn't blame me for doing something you'd do yourself. So, well...right back atcha, snooks.

I love you, too.

[wednesday42.livejournal.com]

Considering how "not-huggy" I feel when everything's getting to me, I'll offer you my Hammer Of Very Cathartic Bashing instead, along with a rain check for a hug if you need it later.

I believe in you, if that helps.

[smileitsme.livejournal.com]

I think it's the cosmo's or whatever (did *I* just say that?) because lots of folks I know, including us, are going through heaps of shit right now.

Not that this helps you in anyway, other than knowing you're not alone in your troubles.

I'll be home Friday night if you want to come over for dinner. Sleepy's going fishing, so it can be girl's night!

There's always New Mexico...

[deathwardegg.livejournal.com]

For once I don't know what to say... if it gets too bad, I have two spare bedrooms here at this house; and uh, 165 spare rooms at Ghost Ranch!

Cheer up Nikk, we love you!!

[eponas-pen.livejournal.com]

Nikki - take a deep breath and repeat after me:
"It is not my responsibility to save the world, only to do what is right and reasonable for me." Repeat twice. Envision yourself wrapped in the collective arms of all your friends and family and know they care for you.

I sooooooo get you right now. I lived that last week (sans the kitty passing, thank gods, which probably would have sent me over the edge) last week. The whole work thing, the feeling helpless and pissed off about it. I'm sorry, my friend. Try to hang in there.

[eponas-pen.livejournal.com]

PS - There's a great campground I know of that has these little cabins perfect for a couple days to get away...

[imafon.livejournal.com]

You see my little picture, this is me...if I didn't have so GD many responsibilities.

Do know that I love you incredibly, and am always here for anything. And if all else fails, you are my adopted child...move back home and I will take care of you.

I wish there was something witty and insightful to say to make you feel better. Unfortunately, the world does not always work that way.

Just remember that you have friends and family who adore you, think you're brilliant and the like...

Luv ya ducks. HUGS from me, and the rest of my dysfunctionals.