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ysobelleI find myself a somewhat unsettling mixture of confusion, anticipation, cautious optimism...and fear. It's been so incredibly long since I started a new relationship with anyone I find I'm unable to figure out what to say, when to say it, or how to feel. While I'm normally quite the outgoing, talkative soul, there are some things that I find I Simply Do Not Talk About. Many things I keep hidden and protected. And now that it's time to say, "This is what I think, this is how I feel, this is what I want," I can't even completely form the thoughts, much less articulate them.
The self-preservational habits of decades are exhaustingly difficult to dismantle.
The self-preservational habits of decades are exhaustingly difficult to dismantle.