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That was…odd.
Nov. 6th, 2013 12:21 amAll the custom colours on my Friends Page decided to get up and go visit other people's journals for a few days. Weirdly, I almost couldn't tell who was who for a bit. Anyone else, or is it just me?
Nov. 6th, 2013
You don't say.
Nov. 6th, 2013 06:18 pmNothing for months, and then twice in one day? I don't know who I AM any more.
I've been thinking a lot about bravery today. I don't usually think of myself as a brave person, but I look back on things I've done-- even things I'm contemplating-- and think, "Well, that took/takes some balls." Some of my choices haven't worked out, of course, but I'm also learning that just because something doesn't work out doesn't mean you were wrong to try it in the first place. That there is value in saying, "I'm taking a risk." That you have to remember that "risk" means "you could bloody well fall on your ass."
I was having an argu-- a discussion with someone a few weeks ago about one kind of risk. He was saying that the fact that you don't know how it could turn out, and you can't turn back once you've taken the leap, means that it's a horrible idea. I argu-- discussed back that that doesn't make it an automatically horrible idea. Sometimes, when you make a decision, you acknowledge and accept the risk, the thought that it could all go dreadfully wrong, but you decide to do it, anyway. The possibility of failure, and the reality of irrevocability, isn't enough of a reason not to try something.
It all seems so basic now. Like we haven't heard all of this in a thousand after-school specials. And as if our parents and teachers and coaches don't say things like this to us all the time growing up. But sometimes, people repeat things they don't actually believe themselves, deep in their brains. Or don't truly understand. I don't know how many times I've said some variation of "Nothing ventured, nothing gained." It just seems like right now, I'm actually learning that. My business won't grow if I sit at home on my ass.
And neither will I.
I've been thinking a lot about bravery today. I don't usually think of myself as a brave person, but I look back on things I've done-- even things I'm contemplating-- and think, "Well, that took/takes some balls." Some of my choices haven't worked out, of course, but I'm also learning that just because something doesn't work out doesn't mean you were wrong to try it in the first place. That there is value in saying, "I'm taking a risk." That you have to remember that "risk" means "you could bloody well fall on your ass."
I was having an argu-- a discussion with someone a few weeks ago about one kind of risk. He was saying that the fact that you don't know how it could turn out, and you can't turn back once you've taken the leap, means that it's a horrible idea. I argu-- discussed back that that doesn't make it an automatically horrible idea. Sometimes, when you make a decision, you acknowledge and accept the risk, the thought that it could all go dreadfully wrong, but you decide to do it, anyway. The possibility of failure, and the reality of irrevocability, isn't enough of a reason not to try something.
It all seems so basic now. Like we haven't heard all of this in a thousand after-school specials. And as if our parents and teachers and coaches don't say things like this to us all the time growing up. But sometimes, people repeat things they don't actually believe themselves, deep in their brains. Or don't truly understand. I don't know how many times I've said some variation of "Nothing ventured, nothing gained." It just seems like right now, I'm actually learning that. My business won't grow if I sit at home on my ass.
And neither will I.